OH MY GOD I wanted too murder somebody, I woke up cranky irritable and all I wanted was a fucking cup of COFFEE, CAFFEINE, JAVA, THE BEANS, THE GOOD STUFF, gimmee, gimmee, gimmee. In fact my exact text message to my sister was "I WANT COFFEE. RAWERRRAAWERRAWER LOL I'm cool!" Her response "I know how you feel. Lol, keep up the amazing work!" Inside I was dying, even with her words of encouragement I wanted coffee, I wanted to eat, I wanted to CHEW*%$#@&*(^&%. Then I responded with "Day four is the WORST." Again she retorted with, "You're doing great!"
Have you ever wanted to punch a rhinoceros in the face? Well this is exactly how I felt. I was tired I wanted coffee, I wanted to chew fucking food goddammit!
Deep breath, I got this! I did make it through day 4 but man it was tough. One of the worst parts of this whole experience is been having to prepare meals for my children. Because even though I was making changes to become healthier, they are still stuck in there routine of peanut butter sandwiches and pizza rolls. I mean I literally went from eating crappy, or hardly eating anything at all to drinking nothing but fruits and vegetables. That's a lot for one person let alone that persons children.
Why did I start my blog with day 4? Probably because it's the day I deemed the hardest in my own personal journey (and let me tell you day 5 was no picnic either) I'll post about that one soon. When I started this journey I also started to keep a handwritten Journal about my feelings my mental depression, pitfalls, when I felt empowered and encouraged. I have it all written down. so when I'm done with this post I suppose I will go ahead and post about all of my many experiences. That may take a few days, but if I can help empower or encourage just one person to get healthy I will be absolutely elated. Because I finally realize that I'm worth it and so are YOU!!!
xo ~Julia~ Happy Juicing
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